its funny how time flies.
sigh, was reminiscing about school because i just met up with my ex-classmates. i kinda miss the whole have-fun-together atmosphere. just..kinda miss it i guess. it has become one hell of a comfort zone that maybe i took it for granted.
it has been a week since my birthday, and i'm awfully glad i managed to get together with many friends.
caught pirates of the carribean (que: ORLANDO BLOOM!!! AHHHH!!!) ok sorry that was way out of point. caught it with simon marcus and gerald. we've known each other for like wad, 5, 6 years? thinking back, we've changed tremendously since then, and i say that in a good way!

met sri shijin ruifang jason and huzair on thurs for some makan-ing and catch up. it was so fun to be able to be ourselves and joke around like we used to. God, i miss those days so much.
photos on jason's blog :)

my sweet bf presented me with a necklace before i left to meet my mum n sis. i was pleasantly surprised because he appeared so...nonchalant about the whole birthday thing. but its still amazing to me, bcause i hold him in very high esteem. extremely high esteem..

so fri came and went. sat i headed down to SP to watch samuel's match against ernest. LOL. one hell of a match i must say. stamina kings. btw, sean is still the ultimate stamina king! HAHA.
it was amazing la really...watching guys matches..totally different level man! saw leroy, onn shaun, bryan there too! sigh. competitions...my sec sch life revolved around them. can even remember how anxious i was for the next wilson open to start!

boyfriend brought me to JB..didnt manage to buy anything much though, since clothes in Tebrau City were around the same price as here. bought tons of sweets though, and dark chocolate for munchin on during school. it felt very good, to be able to stroll around freely with the person you love. its something which i cant explain, no words can describe it.
so many people asked me what it is about him that i fell for, i couldn't reply. its a question which i really dont have an answer for. seriously.

through every relationship, you learn. and in this, i'm applying what i've learnt into it. i'm tryin not to make the same mistakes, trying to compromise even more, tryin to put more into it...keyword is TRYING, because i cant promise. i'm really really trying, because its worth the effort. i really really want this. i want this so bad that maybe my feelings doesn't matter as much to me as it should...

but as he says, it always goes both ways. and i know what he has done for me, and i appreciate it. although i dont say it often, i do appreciate it.

i cant ever say it enough, but you mean the world to me...

for the times you've peeled my prawns, squeezed my limes, tucked my hair behind my ear, wiped my perspiration on the back of your hand, pinched me til i got huge blue blacks [ thats fine really, :) ], held my hand, taught me how to use chopsticks, not minding me in specs (trust me, its terrible), for appearing outside my door when i sprained my ankle, and countless other seemingly trivial stuff, but they're still important to me.
because thats what makes up this relationship to me. not some big celebration or extravagant gift or huge bouquet of flowers. kinda thing. for the enormous trust you've placed in me, and vice versa. some things go without saying. so i tend to "forget" to appreciate sometimes. but no, its always at the back of my mind.

thank you, for saying that day "i'm always here for you...". thank you. :)

anyway, i'm watching shrek 3 tomorrow! thats if i can get tickets of course. haha.

don't look for absolution anywhere else other than yourself.
because at the end of the day, your opinion only matters most to yourself. if you cant forgive yourself, no one could. if you still live in self-denial, no one would be able to pull you out of that pothole you've created.
but if you choose to change, remember that you're changing for yourself, not anyone else.

everyone is entitled to a bit of selfishness sometimes.


-your small little princess